When I want something whether it’s grades, being healthy, working on a project or even what I’m going to do for the night I now make a plan and divide it into:

Goals:

What I want

Objectives:

Specifically what do I want the outcome to be

Strategy:

How am I going to go about getting it

& finally

Tactics:

What exactly I have to do to achieve every part of my original objectives. This means all of the specifics, logistics, everyday little things.

& of course

Evaluate:

Did I get it? Were they the right goals, objectives, strategies and tactics? What should I do next. Did I even really want this to begin with.

Blue: Your ego is out of control. Which is exactly why I like you. You’re confident, but not arrogant, your pride is well earned. More than anything, I admire you. The more I get to know you the cooler you get. Pretty sure the more you get to know me the lamer I get. Typical.

Red: You’re actually perfect. You’ve got swag but you’re a sweetheart. I keep trying to figure out if you’re real or not. Pretty sure it was a dream. I always see you everywhere I go but I’m too awkward to say hi. Sometimes I get a chance to smile at you, but that was a week ago. The more time goes by, the more perfect you get. Dammit.

Yellow: You’re absolutely magnetic. You make me feel wonderful! You’re an ego boost to say the least. You’re also a total tease and I’m afraid to get to know you because I think the more I do, the more I’ll like you.

Orange: When I’m around you I feel like I’m in middle school. I have no idea what that means, but I really want to find out. The more time we spend together the better it gets.  I’m not quite sure how to act around you because you make it too easy. I’m still figuring you out, but I like puzzles.

Green: You’re way to good for me. I come off a lot cooler than I am when I’m around you, but you’re so easy to talk to. You’re on my level, you go my speed, you match my energy. I don’t want you to get the wrong idea. 

You’ll do everything to convince yourself he could never be into you,

-while at the same time,

you turn everything into a sign that he secretly digs you.

Just when I think I’m the shit, I am reminded how much I have to learn- about everything!

I do give myself credit though, I’ve grown so much since the begining of this year.

I couldn’t be more grateful to the people who teach me how to be a good person. Every time I stop to reflect I realize how many amazing people are a part of this school and I’m only at the tip of the iceberg.

It might be a small world but there’s still infinite opportunities. 

I love this school because you can be a “big fish in a small pond,” but I’m hardly there yet. This tank is overflowing with incredibly talented fish and I’m seeing more and more that the size isn’t always an indicator of superiority.

I met you and I knew it was already too good to be true. You didn’t do a single thing wrong. It was so perfect.

I wish I didn’t have to see you practically everyday because it reminds me that you’re real. I wish it was a dream. That those 12 hours were just in my head. They basically were, but they were real enough to be a huge tease. Something I could have. But I can’t.

Sometimes I do have dreams that leave footprints in real life. Reminders that I’ll only ever be human, never capable of understanding what it is I’m doing.

Now every time I hear these 3 particular songs I have to think about you. Why? Why did you steal those songs? They were good ones too!

Every day that passes makes it easier and harder at the same time. I keep wondering if you remember who I am or was it a random inconsequential blur? 

I only want what I can’t have. So if it could ever work it would never work.

Giddy up and gold dust, all the cars turn to rust
You’ve got no means for wanderlust

If only I knew how to turn certain parts of my brain off that would be awesome